I thought it was about time to get back to posting since it had been awhile. I've been reading the journals of you all on my FL and commented on some, but haven't been able to get back into posting yet. It was the same last year after my dad's funeral. Everything slowed to a crawl and I just went through the motions until I felt ready to get back into things. This year was very much the same, but it's been very weird.

I'm doing OK, but the sense of "place" in the world is still off kilter. It's not a depression or sadness, just a disconnect from the past. It's odd to think of having no one older than me in our little branch of the family. It's taking a big adjustment of thinking. My sibs are going through it too. My sister is finally able to catch her breath, but it's a bigger change for her since she lived with and saw my mom daily. My brother has also been unexpectedly (for him) greatly affected by the loss. I have to say that I have been sad and a little lost, but also relieved that my mom's battle and pain are over.

When I can get my thoughts together I'm going to try and remember my mom here so I don't forget all that happened. The funeral and aftermath were both drama free and we get along so there were no recriminations or guilt trips.

I unfortunately got the full blown flu the day after the funeral and laid about for a couple days before Robert and I could head back to Dallas. The will named me as the executor and my sibs and I discussed how to proceed with the estate. There's a lot of sentimental items which my parents listed and luckily we've found ourselves giving things to each other. So far no one is getting greedy or hurt feelings and I am hoping that's how it'll stay. There's some money, insurance and the house to divide. It's not a complicated or gigantic estate, but will still take some time to resolve.

So for now I'm getting back to "normal" and getting on with life.

I can't say enough "thank you"s to all of you for your kind words, prayers and other great acts of kindness.Just knowing people were out there really helped me. :)

I've appreciated all the kind words and nudges sent my way..:)   I'm doing OK and will post again very soon. Thanks to all of you for your concern and support....it's meant a  lot to me!